Death Before Dishonor - Dying Inside

I'm out of answers
I can't explain this shit
What did I do to deserve this mess?
Turmoil finds a way to plague my days
There's no way out of this fucked up place!
I look ahead - maybe I'm just blind?
Looking back - it fucks up my mind!!
My dreams are shattered...
No words can describe...
The way I feel
The thoughts I hide
I went to far, too far this time
Why can't I find
What is my fate I pay no mind
It's a fucking lie, nothing but a lie!
Can't see beyond - beyond my eyes
This is too much
I'm dying inside